Five Months Old

I can’t believe you are five months old, baby girl! Every day you are more aware and interactive than the day before. What a joy it is to see you grow and learn! It is like you learn how to do new things over night! My heart is so full of joy and love. My cup really does runneth over….

You are now able to do a mini push up!

You still haven’t rolled over, but I know that you could if you wanted to. You are just waiting for the right moment! J

You are nursing every 4 hours now and have tried cereal a few times. You did really well! Daddy wants to wait until 6 months to really start you on it, so we are holding off a little longer.

You love to talk and squeal. You can grab your toys now and are really fond of a few of them!

You can track me from across the room.

You don’t like to be separated from me and cry when I get out of sight most of the time.

You are now sleeping in your bassinet almost every night!

Daddy loves to rock you at night time. You two are so sweet together!

Lately you have been quite a Momma’s girl though.

I think your teeth are really close to coming in, so that may explain why you have been more cranky sensitive lately.

You are finally noticing those furry creatures that roam our house, but still don’t want them to touch you.

The car seat is no longer your biggest enemy! You seem to be making peace with it and have been falling asleep when riding. Praise God!

You love to do the air plane and open your mouth really wide in excitement. So cute!

You still wear 3 month clothes, but they are starting to get a little snug!

If those legs get any chubbier, I think I might just die.

You still love bath time and kick your legs really fast when you are in the water. I call you my little frog!

I adore how your eyes light up when you smile. That face could brighten the darkest day.

I don’t know what I did to deserve you, but I don’t question it. I just try love you and appreciate you every second, hoping that God knows the gratitude in my heart.

Five Months Old! 

 Her Daddy loves her a whole lot!

 My little beauty!

 Playing in her jumperoo

 Jeff and Madeline after church....what a good looking pair!

This is as close as we could get to a smile that day...

 A doll!

Loves to sleep with Mommy!

Tummy time in my Tutu!

Words can barely do this photo justice.....just so sweet!

 

I love this little girl...

That smile!

Nothing like a Father's love...

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My favorite movie of all time is Pride and Prejudice. I am a pretty hopeless romantic, so this storyline is right up my alley. I love the era where proper etiquette was observed, women were ladies and men were gentlemen. I love that women wore the stunning gowns and that they danced at balls. They spoke eloquently and wrote beautifully. How different our world is now! It makes me sad to think those things are forever gone, except for in the movies. The only time we dress in exquisite gowns, is for our wedding day. Beautiful letters have been replaced by e-mails and texts. People go to bars instead of balls and some of the most basic manners are lost. But despite the changes in time, I know I have found my modern day Mr. Darcy. He doesn’t ride a horse or like dancing, but he knows how to love me.

Sometimes I think I take for granted that I have found my person. There are so many young women out there; still searching…hoping that the next date will go somewhere. How blessed I am. I go to bed every night knowing that I am loved and accepted. I know that he has my back and will always stand beside me. I am so thankful for the man that I have married and his commitment to me. I truly believe God interceded and brought us together.

“…you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on”. – Mr. Darcy

I’ve got Joy in my Soul….

It was a year ago today that my life changed in the most amazing way….I can remember how my heart skipped a beat when the doctor’s office called and how nervous I was to answer that phone call. Standing in the middle of a shopping center, I received the news that I had so longed to hear. We were pregnant! There is no way that I could ever convey to you the emotion that I experienced that day. To know that a precious baby was growing inside me at that VERY moment! How amazing.

I promised God that day that I would love this tiny little human with all that I had. I would take care of it, and never…I mean never take it for granted. Not everyone knows what it is like to ache for a child. To hope for something that you may never have. We are some of the few that find ourselves on the other side of that grief filled valley with a precious baby in our arms. As hard as those days were, I never want to forget them. They are a reminder of my God’s goodness and faithfulness to me. This is yet another chapter that God has used to mold me into the Mama that He intended for me to be. It has shown me what a miracle life is and that having a baby isn’t a given right….it is a blessing and should be treated as such.

When I look into my daughter’s eyes, I still can’t believe that this is real. I know, without a doubt, that Madeline was meant to be my little girl and that I was destined to be her Mama. This is something that God had already planned before my existence. It is so humbling when I think of how He has taken care of me, knowing what He had in store for me all along. Every day that I cried and pleaded, He was saying, "not yet". I just couldn't hear Him over my grief. I pray that I am able to continue down the path that He has laid out for me and to be a better listener for his direction. So many times I think I have things figured out, only to realize that I don’t. Today, I give thanks for my "plans" falling through and for God's plan prevailing. Thanks be to Him.